In California hanging out at the Vans offices. Exciting stuff coming soon!
I dedicate this reblog to the woman who inspired me to make Sugar Skull macarons. I mean seriously, if I had never known who she was, I would have never been such a follower of what she does and I would have never known what Day Of The Dead was cos I’m just not cool like that. And then I would have never had the idea of giving Paramore Sugar Skull Macarons (that they actually received! But I’ll talk about that in another post: Read it here!)
But then I found her oddly 2 to 3 years ago on Tumblr and she was the reason I finally picked up art again after years of just relying on musical theatre to keep me going.
Hi, Vail! If you’re reading this; just to let you know I left them a card with your name on it just to let them know who inspired me. I oddly hope you’re sorta proud of me (I don’t know why, I was thinking about that the whole day yesterday with Hayley smack in my face, “oh gosh I hope Vail is proud of me.”) and I’ll be glad to spread your art and love in any way I possibly can! I’ll always have your back and I’ll always support you and I hope the best of success and the best for the Confectionary Tour (Which I hope to take a part of one day) for you!
Thank you for teaching me so many new ways of art, and introducing me to so many people through your art. I’ll keep this short because nobody likes too much cheese on top of a pizza. (Ok no maybe I do).
So yesterday Paramore was in Kuala Lumpur for their second time.
I had the hardest time deciding between going to Pierce The Veil’s concert (Which was, yes, on the same night, I know, silly right) and Paramore’s. I have already seen Paramore twice before this and I was leaning towards Pierce The Veil but all signs suddenly took a turn and pointed towards Paramore and I thought. Hey. Would I really give up watching my ultimate idol live again? And besides, I’m flying off to Sydney this weekend to attend the Soundwave Festival so I can always catch Pierce The Veil there.
I bought tickets to both gigs just in case. But then these events happened:
My really good friend Imran, (also known as Narmi), was set to open for Paramore with his band One Buck Short, and he promised he’d sort our group of friends out with tickets. Regardless the fact that the band wasn’t able to perform, he kept his promise and I had a ticket to Paramore. Thank you for that, by the way, Ims! You’re always so selfless when it comes to these things!
I have been working with Jeremy (also known as Remy J) recently on some covers and that one time over lunch he mentioned that Hayley requested a vegan cake. I couldn’t call dibs on baking that so I suggested macarons and nobody knew whether it would pass Paramore’s “customs”. But when I did my last order of macarons, I prepared the Sugar Skull shells anyways. Just in case. JUST IN FREAKING CASE.
And then Aiman(also known as my honey googly bear) was digging the new Paramore sound so much, almost as much as me hehe, and we never agree much in terms of music so it was definitely a sign.
And then I dreamt of Paramore, a lot.
That one time I even dreamt Hayley commented on my Instagram photos.
So I knew I could never pick anyone else over Paramore.
The day before yesterday, Remy J asked me if I had made the macarons (since I didn’t tell anyone I made them) and I said yes. He said okay, bring it tomorrow. Just in case. I held my breath.
He said no promises but probably the macarons can reach the band. I said okay.
I was so torn between going early in the morning to wait in line and possibly get the chance to climb on stage with Hayley but that would have been difficult if in any case I had to meet up with Remy J elsewhere to pass the macarons. After all that self mind battling, I gave in to an extra couple hours of sleep and woke up early to finish the shells and even make a card for the band.
Packed my stuff in a cold bag and made my way to the arena with Aiman to see our friends who were already in line. Waited in line with the rest of them for a bit and then Remy J called and even up to this point I didn’t know if I was gonna meet the band but I’d be glad if the macarons just got through.
Can you imagine how nervous I was? I felt like throwing up. But to keep things short, Remy J and I walked in with the rest of the Meet & Greet winners, and he politely introduced me to all the members of the organization group. We talked for a while with the organisers and before I knew it I was the next group in. Remy J got stopped and so he shoved me the things he wanted the band to have so I took it and walked in with the last group of Meet & Greet peeps.
I first saw Jeremy Davis. And then I saw Hayley’s bright red hair. My heart was in my throat I have looked up to this woman for the longest time, even longer than I have Katy Perry. Everything went by so fast.
In my hands I had my macarons, a card for Paramore, Narmi’s CD and A Paramore Vinyl to get signed for Remy J.
Taylor met me first and he asked, “How are you?” I told him I’m fine and I’m so glad to be there. I showed him the macarons and said, “I made these Sugar Skull Macarons cos I saw that Hayley likes macarons and I wanted to give you guys some of mine!” He smiled and replied as he signed the Vinyl, “Hayley’s gonna love those.” He offered to take it from me but I said, “I wanna show them to the rest first!” and he said thank you and gave me a hug.
Jeremy Davis’ first words to me was, “I like your hair.” I kinda giggled and I think I said, “Thank you,” and he gave me a hug too, right after he signed the Vinyl. I asked him if he was excited to be back and he said super excited. I also mentioned to him I’m going to Sydney for Soundwave and he said that’s great!
And then Hayley looked at me. And I swear my heart is stopping right now as I type this. She’s a little shorter than me and I kinda already knew that but I was smiling so big at her. She said “HEY!” and the first thing that managed to get out of my mouth was “I made these Sugar Skull Macarons for you guys! And I know you have a Sugar Skull hairclip from Charlavail! I have one too!”
She said, “Really?! WOW! These look amazing!!!”
"Could you please sign this for me?" I passed her the Vinyl after a lady took all the gifts from me. She signed it.
Suddenly she stopped and turned to me, “What’s your name?” in that voice I’ve heard oh too many times in YouTube interviews and what not.
I choked, “Tasha.”
And… she started writing my name on Remy J’s Vinyl. I’m still so sorry about that by the way I swear I was going to tell her to stop but I didn’t think I’d ever bother telling her my name so I got all choked up. She asked me how to spell that just in case she’d get it wrong.
As she was signing it, I did this slow motion thing where I just lifted my right arm and wrapped it around her petite self and slowly pulled her into a hug. The kind of hug that someone would give while saying, “Hush now my sweet child.” I hugged her so tight and I think the best part is she hugged back really tight too. The whole band did. They’re like really amazing people.
She passed it to me and smiled, and I just smiled back. Like I can remember how nice her eyeliner looked. But omg why is everything such a blur when you’re trying your best to remember it forever?! I just remember how she smiled at me and how cute her she lined in her eyebrows (they were red).
We were rushed to take a group photo and as we said our goodbyes I said to Taylor I’ll see them in Sydney and totally forgot I didn’t tell Hayley and I called out, “Hayley!” and she looked.
Okay wait before I continue can I just say… HOW WEIRD IT IS TO CALL OUT HER NAME AND ACTUALLY HAVE HER RESPOND?!
Okay anyways, she was like, “Yep?”
"I’ll see you at Sydney’s Soundwave Festival. More macarons maybe?"
"Oh! I’m gonna eat all of them tonight. So maybe.."
And that was it. We left the room. And, me being the most emotional fool ever, broke down and cried in the arms of my friend Mya. Woah I cried like nuts.
Around an hour before the show, I opened Instagram and saw that above. It came from Hayley herself, and sure she didn’t know my username but she used the name my friends call me to call me out and in the end she did find my username and was sweet enough to leave me a little heart with it.
SO YEAH. The rest of the night I was so light headed. But it felt great to watch my 3rd Paramore show with Aiman and this time from a far so I actually got to hear the vocals of the concert and made my own concert at the back with Narmi, Remy J, Prakash and Brendan.
I don’t want to bore you any further with my day yesterday but before I end this post I just want to say thank you to everyone who came up to me to say hi and tell me they read my blog, thanks for taking photos with me, thanks to everyone who is proud of me for what happened, thanks to Narmi for the ticket, thanks to Remy J for working so hard (even though he was just there as an audience) and tiring himself out to make this happen and thank you to Aiman for telling me to never stop believing that I’ll meet Hayley one day.